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December 31, 2024

Discovering My Purpose: A Journey of Intentionality and Inspiration

In today's social media landscape, the term "purpose" is often tossed around, prompting many to ask, "What is my purpose in life?" or "How can I fulfill my purpose?" Recently, I have found myself in a season of reflection, seeking to understand the deeper meaning of this word and its implications.

Defining Purpose

At its core, purpose is defined as the reason for which something is done or created, or for which it exists. Synonyms for purpose include aim, design, intent, mission, and role. Over the past few years, I have replaced my New Year's resolutions with a singular word that guides my intentions. A few years ago, that word was "Intent" or "Intentional." I made a conscious effort to be intentional in my relationships, in my love for God and His people, and in creating a positive atmosphere around me. However, this pursuit left me feeling mentally, physically, and emotionally drained.

Shifting Focus

Last year, my chosen word was "Focus." As someone who often struggles with maintaining attention, I made a commitment to pay close attention to every detail of my life. I wanted to seize every moment that could teach me something or encourage my growth. I documented my experiences and began to connect the dots, leading to a greater understanding of my journey.

Embracing My Purpose

This year, my word is "Purpose." I believe that God has been preparing me for this moment for years, as the details of my story unfold in ways I could never have imagined. A few months ago, I realized that my fascination with disco balls had a significant meaning. Initially, I thought it was just my admiration for "Dancing With the Stars" and Derek Hough, but I was mistaken.

One night in October, at 2:12 AM, I felt a revelation wash over me. I proclaimed, "The Desire to Inspire & Seek Christ On Purpose." The first letters of that phrase spell "DISCO." This realization brought clarity to my prayers: I long for the desire to inspire and seek Christ with intention. I aim to be purposeful with my time with Him and strive to advance His kingdom.

Finding Peace in Purpose

I experience profound peace and reduced pain when I encourage and inspire others while sharing how God has been faithful in my life. I believe this vision and mission have been divinely bestowed upon me. What began as a voice-recorded prayer back in 2017—when I felt a strong calling to uplift and encourage others—has come to fruition. Looking back over the past 7-8 years, I can see God's hand in every detail of my story.

Through the messiness of life, God has walked beside me. This isn’t a plea for sympathy; I know many face far worse challenges. However, my experiences have encouraged me to share my trials, which have shaped my growth. The physical, mental, and emotional struggles I have faced have deepened my compassion and empathy for people, helping me connect on a more profound level.

I pray that my struggles lead others to know the ONE who holds me up each day.

Lord, grant me the strength to be obedient to your calling with the time I have left. I trust that you placed this desire and dream in my heart for a purpose—to be fulfilled for my good and Your glory.

Amen.

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Shine Bright: How a Disco Ball Led to Purpose

Updated: Jan 14

How could a disco ball have so much to do with my purpose? I'm a firm believer in divine moments and God just kept putting these shiny little balls in my path. I couldn't understand why I was so drawn to them. It finally hit me one day in my office at Rainbow Omega alone after work. It was 4:30 and time to go home, but I couldn't pull myself out of my chair. I just kept staring at that Disco Ball spinning. I remember asking God, "What are you trying to tell me, Lord?" And I felt my spirit moved so deeply. My mind was like, Woah! Each broken piece on that ball represented my life. Each broken piece is part of my story. Each story makes up who I am to this point. I continued to watch the ball spin sitting on my desk with tears now flowing from my eyes and the pieces reflecting off the wall, but it was such a clear moment for me and a reminder to share with others. We're all just beautifully broken people and God wants to use those broken pieces to restore us to look more like Him, so we can spread our light to others. I have always struggled with not being able to see myself as Jesus sees me. The fear of rejection and disappointment, anxiety and depression, self-image, and obsessive thoughts would take over my mind because of my ADD. The Lord started opening this door back in 2017, but I wasn't ready. I believe He was just preparing me for what was to come. A tale of discovery, purpose, and a little touch of sparkle. This is the story of how this Jesus Loving Wife, Mother of Two, and Former Special Education Teacher discovered what God had planned for my life, but I had to walk through the fire to get to this point.


I begin to fully experience the Goodness of God. I started craving more and more of His word. I found myself waking up so much earlier to spend as much time with Him as I could during my quiet time. I started reading years and years of journals that I've written to see how God spoke to me. I started to remember all the times He provided, comforted, and restored me. The times that I felt a peace like no other and couldn't explain it. That peace was Jesus and He used those seasons of refinement to show and teach me how to become fully dependent on Him and now I believe He's going to use it to continue to build up His Kingdom, because in the end that's all that matters! He's been orchestrating specific details over the years and things started making sense. All of the signs and God winks that He's been showing me were becoming extremely obvious. Like I said before, I struggle with the ability to focus, but I felt that I was able to focus on things that God meant to stand out! The many detailed pieces along the way became the pieces that I started putting together. I had mentioned to a few of my prayer warriors and my husband to please be in prayer for me because my spirit was just so heavy, but in a good way. I didn't know exactly what God was doing, but I was busting from the seams every time He would show me something new. I told myself a few times that people wouldn't believe some of this, but I had the proof. God started planting this seed back in April of 2017, April 26th to be exact. I voice-recorded a conversation that I had with God when I felt Him calling me to speak, but I have ignored this calling for almost eight years. I didn't want it to be what Jennifer thought or wanted, but ONLY what God wanted for Jennifer. So I started praying, "Lord, please give me some confirmation about this. If this isn't part of your plan, I need to know...because it's sure feeling like it's ALL YOU....but I can't do this!"

*Warning: Be careful when you tell God what you're not going to do. He will find a way to make it happen! LOL

Well, God give me confirmation alright! He sat me straight up in the bed on October 22, 2024, and I immediately said out loud, "Desire to Inspire and Seek Christ On Purpose."

That's it!! That's what God has been trying to show me through these Disco Balls. That's where THE DISCO PURPOSE was born and my collection of Disco Balls mean so much more now than ever! This newfound sense of direction and passion means taking a LEAP OF FAITH and putting all of my TRUST in the ONE that directs every single one of my steps. I pray that God will be able to use the gifts that He's blessed me with to inspire, motivate, and uplift a lost and broken world. It's the unexpected sources of inspiration that show up in the strangest of places that lead us to the bigger purpose on this life journey. Disclaimer: This will be a raw, transparent journey filled with many broken pieces, bad choices, physical & mental pain, and more. But it's also a journey filled with freedom in discovering who I am in Christ, renewing my mind daily to have a consciousness of Christ, and staying aware of His presence in every single detail and situation in my life. I pray that God will move me out of the way and that everything that is read on this page is completely guided by the Holy Spirit, not by my own emotions, feelings, or what "I think" is right or supposed to happen. May I only share LOVE, GRACE, and TRUTH with those that I come in contact with in person or online. May your GLORY SHINE through me to your people as you use me to build up your kingdom, Lord! --AMEN

 
 
 

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